Just like the title itself. Yeah, my life has been dramatic recently. I dunno, but it happened. At first we were planning a 4 people trip together, but then at last I’m the only one who is going. You know the feeling, it’s like all on your own now. I’m all alone which I can say. The “housemates” are having some argument but yet I’m the final victim. If you don’t feel like going together or you don’t feel yourself suit of the traveling style, just don’t agree with the others that you’re joining at the very beginning. If there are some problems between you all, better talk it out, what for you keep it plus some more you’re making drama on it. Which this can make things worse or complicated. I really don’t understand.
Sometimes, it’s better not making too much of friends into your priority. In the same time, they can give you not a damn shit while you take them as one of your special one. The status of “best friend” ain’t no more, which they aren’t think that you’re as special as the way you thought of them. The world can be cruel sometimes. Being good to somebody ain’t the good way anymore. Preferably treating them badly are the correct one. Perhaps that’ll be the last, not in the mood to ask people out for a tea, date, dinner or what so ever again. Just wasting of their times and mine too. Well, the most hurting sentence ever, “Why are you sad if I don’t talk to you? If you don’t talk to me, I wouldn’t be sad though.” A big OUCH there for me :(
Yea, that’s part of the sad life that I’m having right now. Making friend can be a wrong choice sometimes. How pathetic I’m.
Been studying this nonsense subject throughout the week - Hygiene #onlyinrussia
Yeah, today was the day for it. And now, I’m already done with it, no more after this. HAHA. The result was not that bad, considered okay since I study so so only. Lazy much >_< The next one will be ENT exam. Hopefully can make it better.
Finally the last thing reached already. Just hope that you’ll like it. It’s a red colour Starbucks Planner that you wish to have before this. And yeah, I got it. Although it’s a bit rare but nothing is impossible right? =) If you wanna ask me why I so good to you every times, this will be my only answer - I dunno how long more I can stay around for you to cheer you up and make you happy, as long as there is any chance and I’m capable to, I’ll just try my best to make it for you. Although I know we’ll never gonna end up together. Maybe you just think that I’m a freak or stranger who like to send you things although we never meet each other before in real life. But yeah, I do really fall for you. My friend told me this before, you don’t need to meet a person face to face in order to fall in love with him/her. Yeah, it was quite true though. I don’t hope much for anything, just wanna see you happy and wish that you’ll remember me as the person who ever walked by in your life before together those good memories.
Don’t force yourself to text me or talk with me just because you fell bad after I sent you all the things. Don’t worry, it was some little things from my heart which all based on my will. I would be happy if you wanna text me or call me because of you feel like doing so, and you do remember about my existence.
Maybe I should take a step back, leave some space in between. I know I’m not a good guy, I do feel jelly sometimes, feel angry when you don’t spend some times for me. You know what hurt me much? It’s during the moment when your whatsapp appear online but I’ll never see “typing…” from you. Sometimes I send out so many texts but only get back a one word reply from you. But well, maybe it’s just my own thingy, own problem. I shouldn’t have over think also. I’m going to take a leave and hope that everything will go back to normal again.
Thanks for those happy moment that you gave me, I really appreciated much. Thanks you syg =’)
OMG, so emo the post for tonight. HAHA. Yeah, that’s all. Good night.
What an unproductive day I have today. Hmmmm~ So late only I woke up. Didn’t study anything also. The most that I did was going out to have a haircut. And yeah, I’m happy with this new haircut. First time ever the Russian barber understood me and cut the style that I wanted =)
Here is it =)
That’s all for today. Good night!